A Journey Beyond The Logical Mind

Salam to all..


How to train your dragon was


SUPER AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Toothless reminds me of Lugia. 


Next!


Up
Bolt
Toys Story 3
Cloudy with a chance of meatball
Fantastic Mr Fox
Wall E
Legend of the Guardians.


Did I mention Medsci was SUPER HARD?

Salam to all.


Hating people is like burning down your own house to get rid of a rat.  ~Henry Emerson Fosdick

Salam to all.


Saying it isnt that simple.


I hate it when I cant even say a simple no.


Urgh.


Astaghfirullah. 

Salam to all.


Alhamdulillah tahap yang only God knows.


Akhirnya settle duit ororke
Akhirnya bayar hutang farah & irfan


Lega.


Sangat lega.


Alhamdulillah :)

Salam to all.


Yesterday I made maggi goreng berfish ball and veggies. sawi woo.


Today I made wany's toast. why do people call it french toast anyway?


(ah ha! i can see that 'so what?' look.)


but seriously, for this particular budak oroke, *usually characterised by round, plump face, a look that is further enhanced by tudung bulat. oh, did i mention a big hole in her pocket?* that's quite an achievement. and it's back-to-back pulak tu.


i just read through the writing space (?) of one of my favourite person. haha. finally found it! ;)


and that made me wanna write in my writing space too!


healthpsych is in six days but i think i have more than 20 lectures to cover, oh noo! I feel really bad about not going to lectures and couldn't remember which topic was the last lecture i went to. oh wait, was it mind body? yeah, i think so. BUT, they have recorded lecture which I couldn't access from Kate Edgar. What if I'm a budak yang duduk dekat kampung yang takde laptop and Internet access?? How am I to study?? And I had difficulty going to class because there's bus every 50 minutes and if I miss the 6.20 bus I'll surely miss the 8 am lecture? Did I mention it took me 1 hour 32 minutes from bus door to FPAA's door? *this is not me. it's just a hypothetical situation to justify the unfairness it would be to the little girl who wants to score A plus for her health psychology 122 paper*
 Alhamdulillah boleh access from oroke. :)


and medsci, *which is alhamdulillah not the day after* ohhh.


pop health, thanks dee for the last pep-talk.


I love the way Dee teach. She's my tutor for pop 101 and 102. And she's amazing!
Her sarcasm and funny funny talk (which was sometimes not funny but i still have this big grin on my face) was the thing that kept me in 734-201, 12.30-1.30 every Thursday the whole of semester 2. yeah. I don't know if she's going to give lectures one day (that'll be good for her and yeah her students) but if that happens, I hope she'll still do tutoring.


 Econs. I love econs! maybe not so much on the graph thingy?


yazmin is still not feeling well. :(


may Allah grant you health my friend! amiin.

Salam to all.


Adakah saya semakin omputih jika:

1. Makan 2 keping roti utk lunch pun boleh kenyang, and sebelum tu tak breakfast pun.
2. Keluar rumah tanpa jacket walaupun angin kencaaang sejuk menusuk tulang.
3. Makan nasi dengan sos tomato.

Salam to all.


Wasted precious moments thinking about stupid stuff. The time could be used to increase the number of words from 266 to 2000.


if only it's as easy as pressing shift + Delete.

Salam to all..


Yup, I thought they were calamari rings. Nevermind, at least I got a lot of tempura prawns too :D


Expensive? Yeah. Though 5 dollar, sponsored by Umsa.


Committee Appreciation Dinner at Thai Chilli. 


We prayed maghrib at a corner near the Rugby countdown area, awesome! haha.


But Yazmin wasn't feeling very well. :( I hope she's okay now.
Anyway, I hope it was #498. HAHA! yeah right. I did feel good  though.  :)

Salam to all.


Alhamdulillah, within 8 and a half months :)


InsyaAllah will read more and more.


There's lots and lots and lots of things to learn.


Let's istiqamah in reading His love letter :)

Salam to all.


Yes, but that was 2 weeks ago.


But the 'effect' on my room can be seen now.


hahaha.


off to gym~~

Salam to all.


What should we do with the Quran?


Read. Yes.


Hear. Okay.


Listen. Absolutely.

Salam to all.


Haha. right. that doesn't always work. sweets~ maggi je pun~ 


Astaghfirullah al azim.


Astaghfirullah al azim.


Astaghfirullah al azim.


Allah always surprise me with something I didn't expect. Hence the word surprise. Okay, you still with me?


So just now I sorta wanna make a surprise snack *because it's not a certified main course, to some standards* for an unplanned but kinda planned picnic at one of the most charming places here in this place I currently live.


Let's just skip to the main point, while making the snack, I kinda forgot to wash the snack's so-called 'center of attraction'. Pretty gross, it turned out to be.


So I threw it away.


I then have to buy more of the 'snack'. I walked to Forte, spent some time chit chatting with the nice owner who told me of something that erm.. I don't really want to hear. I don't know if I'm making the right choice or not. What he said kinda scare me. Oh rabbana yassirna!


Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah.


Sometimes, it's just beautiful how Allah arranges everything. Innaka anta al-alim al-hakim.


Back to the so called unplanned but planned picnic, it was postponed to a later unplanned date. 


Oh, before that, I did make another round of the snack. This time a lil bit better :)


Alhamdulillah.


In the end, the snack *insyaAllah* becomes the 'rezeki' of some other people.


InsyaAllah, because I hope they'll eat it. 


Yeah, maggi je pun.


Ya Allah, please guide me, my family, every Muslim, Muslimah and anyone with a good intention.


Amiin. 

Salam to all.


Alhamdulillah duit mara masuk harini.


But I can't breathe easily selagi duit ororke tak settle.


Duit november cepatla masukkkk!


;)

Salam to all..


Esok GST naik.


Mara, oh Mara. Saya nak beli barang-barang sikit untuk balik malaysia sebelum harga naik.. boleh tak? :D

Salam to all.


Sir Hilmi is right :) I have a superduperextraordinary boring world of my own. haha.


Faiz, aku rindu kau. Aku rasa sorang-sorang kat sini, walaupun kawan aku ramai. diorang try nak paham aku, tapi ak sendiri pun tak paham diri sendiri. haha.Aku try nak paham diorang tapi macam tak boleh. haha, aku rasa tu bukan masalah baru la kan. tapi dorang sagnat baik, cuma ak yang tak dapat masuk sangat kalau in one big group. haha. shoot, pathetic giler aku.
Walaupun kau jauh, and mgkin tak baca pun bende ni, tapi ak nak ko tau yang ko kawan yang sangat berharga. :')

Salam to all.


Starting from Friday, the GST will increase.


Price of goods will increase.


I think I love Econs, just not the test ;p

Salam to all.


Sobs, they've removed my favourite video from youtube. sobss~ My favourite fairy tale video with flowers and swings and other beautiful stuff. sedeynyerrrrr!


and I have econs test this evening. 


And have to submit healthpsych essay on Friday. Friday morning T.T

Salam to all.


I think I miss Pop 101. :'(

Sometimes I just want the voice in my head to shut up.

Salam to all.


Sahabat baik itu adalah sahabat yang inginkan kebaikan untuk sahabatnya.


Sahabat baik itu adalah sahabat yang inginkan kesakitan dijauhkan dari sahabatnya.


Sahabat baik itu adalah sahabat yang berani membela sahabatnya dalam hal-hal yang haq.


Sahabat baik itu adalah sahabat yang berani menegur sahabatnya dalam hal-hal yang haq. 


Ya Allah, thank you for giving me friends that can lead me to Your path, constantly reminding me of the true purpose I am here and being there for me always. :)


Ya Allah, it's amazing how you arrange things to be, Subhanallah.

Salam to all..


Ya Allah, one thing I did that I'm really glad I did it, was to sell the keyboard.


Yes, I'm easily touched by words, but from her response about her kids enjoying the keyboard left this feeling of happiness... shoot my english's getting bad.


Rasa sebak, bersyukur, terharu, and.. I felt like I changed someone's life in a good way. 


Maybe to you it's just nothing, but to me, I feel accomplished when I can touch a person's heart, to make them feel good about themselves and to encourage them to touch other people's heart.


The keyboard was usually under my bed, left there untouched due to my high 'standard' of sound and touch experience quality. It's not to say that the keyboard was not functioning in any way, or broken or something, but.. nevermind.


Main point here, the way Allah put things together is just beautiful. 


Alhamdulillah. :)


//Anyway, I would rate today as 4.80 out of 5.00 :D


Why?


1. Subuh awal waktu sebab tak tidur dari malam untuk tunggu subuh.
2. Had a nice chat with Cynthia and Karen. Got some useful infos~
3. Sent the keyboard stand~ boleh pulak terlupaaaa nak hantar skali..
4. Returned library books (WITHOUT having to pay fine~ :D )
5. Settled money matters. :)
6. Bought the darling book I've been dying to get my hands on it. Saved 51 cents!
7. Come clean about the O'rorke sambutan raya. Good thing too, enough said ;)
8. Got the letter from SpecSavers.
9. Bought Lindor for 5nzd each thanks to O'Rorke :D
10. Signed the contract Alhamdulillah.
11. Buang sampah dari tong sampah bilik? ;) Bolehlaa dikira..
12. Baked Raya cookies at Kak Far's with Kak Tik, Kak Fiza, Aisyah and Kak Nadiah KZ. :D
13. Dinner Fish and Chips! hehe. Alhamdulillah. :D


The missing 0.20 comes from 


1. I slept during Medsci (Musculoskeletal 2nd lecture =.=')


What a day!

Salam to all.


Pesanan dari ibu kak Munirah Safian kepadanya yang saya rasa adalah seperti pesanan setiap ibu kepada anaknya.


"kakak, bila kakak rasa nak pakai apa2 baju, fikir dulu samaada kakak malu x nak bawa baju tu menghadap Allah masa solat. Sebab pakaian menutup aurat ialah pakaian solat"


Ya Allah, jadikanlah kami hambaMu yang menutup aurat dengan sebetul-betulnya dan masukkanlah kami dalam kalangan orang yang takut kepadaMu (bertaqwa).


Amiin. 

Salam to all.


I dreamt about Kate Knapp's It's not always black and white.


I just fell in love with it the first time I saw it. 


Normal price (sold at UBS) : NZD 29.95


Price in my dream :


2 for NZD 21.00!!!!!!!!!


And it was like super real.


And I was really super duper happy.


Only to find out that it's only a dream.


*HINT HINT* People!!


And I had another weird dream too. Funny how that made me feel the way I feel. I hate the feeling I felt in the dream. 

Salam to all.


I'm so lacking in PR skills.

Sheesh.


I like to be around people. But I don't really know what to say when I'm in a big group. I love silly conversations but often with just 1 person at a time. I don't have a childhood friend whom I'm still in contact with. The same goes to sekolah rendah. Almashoor, I have Nadzirah. :) 


Langkawi, I guess I just mingled with my classmates and Faiz and Shad. Awwwwww, miss them lots! The same goes to Taylors. 


It's always either one of these two things; I'm the first to know, or I'm the last to know. To be honest, it's always the latter. Haha.


Sir Hilmi once said that I have my own world. 


It can be both good and bad. 


I like to be on my own because I don't have to burden others as I tend to change plans without warning. And I don't have to worry of what people say. 


The downside? Haha, you're reading it. //Oh this is super lame. 


I hope I'm not a fair weather friend. :'(


Sharing is important. When we lose the sharing, we lose the closeness. 


Ramadhan. <3

Salam to all.


I miss my old phone, the one that plays Maybe for every message recieved.


To me, Maybe has this slight sad tone to it, although it's pretty fast-paced. 


or maybe it's just me?


Currently reading page 83 of MedSci Textbook.


Sunyinyer. I miss Langkawi lots!

Salam to all.

Salam to all.


Niat. 


What do I want exactly? 


//oh! Found my old love again! Ryan Gosling :') I've been watching Breaker High and Young Hercules since I was a kid, but last night's The Notebook,was the best ever. :'')

Salam to all.


Yeah, there's a lot of things I want to do in life.


And one of it is to prove you wrong. 


Gazebo by Hujan. The scene.

Salam to all.


Ya Allah, aku mohon keberkatan dalam rezeki yang aku terima agar aku tidak perlu bergantung kepada orang lain selain daripadaMu. 


Ya Allah, aku mohon kesabaran dan kelapangan dada agar aku tidak mudah marah dan kecewa apabila diuji olehMu.


Ya Allah, aku mohon rasa kasih dan sayang kepadaMu dan rasulMu melebihi dunia dan segala isinya. 


Ya Allah, aku mohon dipanjangkan rasa kasih dan sayang kepada kedua ibu bapaku agar aku dapat sentiasa taat dan hormat kepada mereka dan dapat menjaga mereka dengan sebaik-baiknya.


Ya Allah, aku mohon keberkatan dalam setiap minit pembelajaranku agar mudah untuk aku faham, ingat dan hafal ilmu-ilmu yang bermanfaat dan janganlah wujud perasaan sombong atau riak dalam hatiku dengan ilmu-ilmu tersebut.


Amiin. 

Salam to all.


Ujian kesabaran oh yeah.


I still love you Mara. :)


//Went to the surgical clinic this morning. The doctor was nice, the clinic was waaaay nice. The consultation fee was pretty niceeee too. Say 205nzd? 


//Get well soon, Kak Sha!

Salam to all.


Why must the glory of soaring be beaten by the fear of falling?


Why must I give up before I even try?


In Health Psych 122, there's this term called 'Learned Helplessness'.






You should now have a rough idea of what that term means. 


Is it a human instinct to say 'That's it for me, I'm done'?


'I'll never get any better than him. Why bother trying?'


No, I don't think so. But what I think doesn't represent what I did or will do. Yet.


I just hate the fact that I let go of things so easily. Urgh, take knitting for example. urgh!!!!!!


Others who tried and failed *well,they didn't actually fail, cantik je ape yang diorang buat waktu first try*, well, they keep trying and sekarang collection diorang tersangatlah banyak. 


That makes me distance myself from the knitting stick thingy and yarn even more. Why?


The honest answer, I hate to fail a bigger failure. It'll look so stupid to fail while others can. So if I take the step to just sit there in a corner, quietly, shutting myself out, I won't fail whatsoever.


And being honest again, ah, forget it. it's just hard to be honest, here, or anywhere or to anyone. Because this thing is just plain stupid.


AH SHUT UP LAH WANY.

Salam to all.


Just a note to say how much I miss these kids!


Aqif (the shy shy one- 2.5yrs).
Iman (the friendly baby - 2 mnths)
Adam (the cheeky one - 9 yrs)
Aisya (the evil bunny artist - 11 yrs)
Mukmin ( the 'Naim' clone - 7 yrs)
Hanif ( the soccer and touch rugby player - 13 yrs)
Hanisah (the friendly one in tudung)
Lisa (the artist-1)
Teja (the artist -2)
Hannan (the Cikgu Bedah - 4yrs I think)
Sarah (the owner of the marker pens)
Amira (Yazmin's little sis, hehe)


It's not so much on the food. It's about the journey and the fillings. :)

Salam to all.


Yeah, I'm in a good mood today, tee hee. Alhamdulillah.


Today is our Courses and Careers Day, so I volunteered to get people to and fro the rec centre and O'Rorke.


Fuh, never thought it's gonna be that tiring. 


The thing that got me really glad was when I helped this pair of mother and daughter, both wearing red. The daughter wants to study Fine Arts... Okay, so the point is, both of them we're really satisfied with IH and I'm really happy that they're happy. :)


Oh, did I mention the 50nzd voucher from Accoms office? tee hee. 


So it's kinda worth the soreness a little bit.


Now, I'm wasting my time again, looking over online book stores to find this book :

It's not always black and white. By Kate Knapp.

Salam to all.


Yeahhhh, in 12 hours time I'll be freeeeeeeeeeeee!


about 400 words to go.


Alhamdulillah refrence list dah 90% siap.


Pop health, I love you.


//I just hate it when my blood pressure suddenly rises and my heart pumps harder just because I see things that hurts. oh. c'mon, you said you're letting it go alreadyyy!  pathetic. urgh! just let it goooooooo!

Salam to all.


Alhamdulillah, ada progress!


hehe. semakin mudah untuk meninggalkannya. insyaAllah satu hari nanti berjaya!


No return. yeah.

Salam to all.


It's just hard to let go. 


Kalau perangai buruk, memang susah nak let go. 


Adush. 


Just let it go. 


Jangan semakkan otak. 

Salam to all.


Just something I got from Kak Sal. :D


Keadaan hamba itu hanya ada 4; nikmat, bala, taat, dan maksiat. Maka jika ada di dalam nikmat, kewajipan hamba adalah bersyukur kepada ALLAH.. dan jika menerima bala, harus bersabar.Jika dapat melakukan ketaatan harus merasa mendapat taufiq dan hidayat dari ALLAH dan jika tergelincir dalam maksiat, maka harus membaca Istigfar.. -Abul Abbas Al Masri ~allahumma ballighna Ramadhan~

Salam to all.


Talk less, listen more.


:)


updates:

1. Bought flight tickets. 4/8
2. Paid O'Rorke.
3. Bought bars of Whitaker. 6/8
4. Made Tiramisu with Farah, Yazmin and Aisyah. 6/8
5. Watched sunset at a very very lovely park, somewhere near Mission Bay, with the girls and Kak Tik, Kak Far, and Kak Salwa. 6/8
6. Watched August Rush. Definitely goes into my 'All Time Favourite' list. Truly magical. :')
7. I couldn't find the Japanese version of Cooking Master Boy :(
8. Tok We now stays at our house :)
9. Finallyyy got a bottle of Minyak Mustika all to myself! Thanks Kak Tik!
10. Dessert Nite, :) A chance to catch up with Naomi and Angeline :) 30/7
11. Moovie nite, Muhammad the Last Prophet 2/8
12. Interfaith Dialogue 3/8
13. Meeting with Mara 30/7
14. AUIS barbeque! 4/8
15. Dissected a white rattus norvegicus :D 26/7
16. Shopping at Pak N Save in between class. haha. 4/8

Salam to all.


I've just completed the 'Secret Admirers' form. One of the activities in O'Rorke. haha.


And there's a section; Hobbies.


God, I actually had a hard time figuring out what my hobby is. Let alone hobbies. =.=


Sheesh. 


So I wrote, no. 1 : Surfing the web. 


no. 2 : Reading.


no. 3 : Playing sports.


if there's one thing I hate about myself is that I don't have a positive addiction.


I have friends who are really into Korean drama and stuff, manga, anime, crochet, movies, series, all sorts of stuff.


But I don't have that.


I watch movie if it's right in front of my eyes (which sometimes require some effort from the people around me to put the movie right in front of my eyes), I don't have the patience to keep up with series (as I tend to 'aaahh, cepat laaaa... bila nak jadi ni??'), the same goes to anime (I tried watching Cooking Master Boy -but I kinda liked that and I actually quite hooked-, Ranma 1/2.. and err, does Sailormoon count? ), and I sorta gave up on knitting T.T


And I don't know if it's good or bad, haha, because sometimes I feel a lil bit disconnected, but sometimes I feel glad not having the dying feeling to know what's going to happen in the next episode of a series. 


(stop writing for a while to google Cooking Master Boy)


(.. watched an episode of Cooking Master Boy..)




Oh God, I now have an addiction. 


FINALLYYYYY!

Salam to all.


I can't no longer accept it, I have to change it. 


Currently living with negative twenty three.

Salam to all.


I am trying to survive negative nine. ohoho.

Salam to all.


... me talking to you? Across the water, across the deep blue ocean~

Salam to all.


Yesterday's talk was really inspiring. :)
But I know it won't happen in the near future. 
Anyway, way before the talk, I duelled with Farah in a game of Badminton, and yeah I got trashed but somehow I felt really really tired. It's just an hour ++ game~ I used to play for an hour ++ in the fasting month without feeling ultimately exhausted. hmmm~


After the game, we met Yuri and Irfan. Yuri got some eye problem and so all of us medic people insisted to bring her to the doctor. At first, she doesnt want to, because that's gonna cost her a lecture on plants~


About 20 minutes later, we reached the A&E of Auckland Hospital. I asked the nurse about the cost of seeing the doctor and well, just see it for yourself.

363.37NZD for 1 consultation.

Salam to all.

Salam to all.

Salam to all.


Alhamdulillah :)

1. Bought myself a new mug! :) Love at first sight again. haha. Now I can make use of the lovely mug coaster Farah made me.
2. Got $$$ from Zue, Fathi and Kak Teh!
3. Settled debt.
4. Bought something from Forte that I've been craving for so long. Sedappppp!! Tasted like real choc ice cream!
5. The price of the tissue turned out to be much less than displayed. 
6. How can I forget? Today's lecture on human brain was super duper awesome!!!!!!!!!!
7. InsyaAllah there'll be a Malaysian medic students meeting today! ;)

Such a beauty.

Salam to all.


... learn how to forgive myself.

Salam to all.


...remind myself that sometimes, I don't have to prove anything.

Salam to all.


Cis.


Ooops. Astaghfirullah.


Haih, selalu semangat lebih. 


Sila abaikan the previous post yang sangat poyo. 


Sekian terima kasih.


Sub-title required for this movie. 

Salam to all.


I got a phone call at about 10pm from Jia Hui, saying that UMSA needs a female futsal player for the Asean games.


Oh God, I know I complained much about the recent Bersatu Games but but but!!


Oh.. I didn't practice after Bersatu, and I am 100% positive I've put on weight, and I don't have the support I had during Bersatu. 


But I have you, Allah. And to You I put my trust. 


Rabbana yassirna wala tuassirna ya karim.


I'll give my best. InsyaAllah.