Defeated. Again.

Salam to all.

KAU!
Ya, kau lah siapa lagi,
Aku selalu kalah,
Kalah dan kalah lagi,
Aku cuba bangun, tapi kau hantam aku bertubi-tubi,
Sakit tau tak?!

Ok fine,
Aku dah jatuh,
Tapi, sebab aku jatuhlah aku boleh bangun balik,
And I promise you I will.

***

I want to:

*Play badminton because I love the feeling of hitting the shuttle, especially during 'Smash'.
*Swim because I love the freedom I get underwater.
*Buy a pair of sandal or shoe maybe because I don't want to wear my favourite shoe every single day. I don't like wearing slippers, mind you.
*Finish my Physics project so that I can enjoy life more.
*Eat ikan bakar with lots and lots of sambal.
*Sing my heart out (duet maybe. haha. like that's gonna happen). Only God knows how much I love to sing.
*Kick those thing you kick during taekwondo practice. (They better have the practice tomorrow or I'll.. I'll... erm.. I'll feel sooooooooooooo frustrated)
*End this post so that I can focus on my real reason why I am here in The Web.


Inswallowable. *if there's such word*

Salam to all.

Kakak..
Haah? (menyahut)
Sarah dah meninggal..
Haah? Sarah mana? Sarah yang abang dia nama Anas tu?
Hmm.. (mengiyakan)
Haaa.. (tergamam)
Dia kena accident kereta..

It's hard to swallow that piece of information I just got from my sister. Sarah, a girl I've known about 6 years ago, my junior at my Qiraati I can say..

Bubbly. Cheerful. Always with a smile.

Tau tak, dia selalu tanya Mimi macamana kat sekolah menengah.. Dia cakap dia nak dapat 5A, nak masuk sekolah BJ sama dengan Mimi.. Boleh selalu jumpa Mimi.. Boleh rehat sama-sama..
Yeker..?(I feel like crying, but considering the fact that I was in the car with my whole family, I decided not to)
Dia darjah apa?
Darjah 6.
Yer...? Dia sempat ambik UPSR tak?
Sempat kot.. Tapi tak dapat ambik result lah..
(And tak dapat rasa suasana sekolah menengah yang dia selalu tanya Mimi.. Ya Allah.. Lagilah aku sebak..)

Even as I type this, I still could not digest the fact that she's not here anymore. Why it's so hard for me to do so? Why is it so hard for me to accept the fact that anyone of any age can die? Maybe it's because I didn't see it with my own two eyes.

Sarah was close to Mimi. She would call to ask Mimi if she's going to Mengaji or not. She would call to convey Ustazah's message to Mimi as Mimi could no longer attend Mengaji. I was sometimes the one who picked up the phone.

Selamat tinggal Sarah.
Kak Wany tak sangka Allah jemput Sarah dulu.
Untungnya kau, Sarah. Pergi dalam keadaan suci mengadap-Nya.
Kak Wany harap keluarga Sarah dapat menerima ujian-Nya dengan redha, tabah dan sabar.
Al-Fatihah dari Kak Wany buatmu Sarah.

I(SAT+ELTS)=?.

Salam to all.

What could be worse than horror movies?

What could be worse than no free Internet at CASA?

What could be worse than not wearing closed shoe and not bringing your goggles during Chemistry Lab? *Imagine Mrs. Tan with fire in her eyes, people!* -sorry Mrs. Tan!-

What could be worse than having chilli sauce on your tudung and you didn't notice it until the person you have crush on pointed it to you?

What could be worse than a rainy day and you have no payung and you missed the bus and you have no credit and your poket kering and handphone with battery satu bar?

I have the answer.

ISAT and IELTS.

The End.

Oh sorry.

The horror begins 20th October 2008.

*gULP*

Proven.

Salam to all.

Proven.
When you put your mind, heart and body to do something, and put your trust to Allah InsyaAllah it will turn out well.

Proven.
Sports help to build intergration.

Proven.
Challenges foster teamwork.

Proven.
Teamwork fosters trust.

Proven.
Trust creates friendship.

Proven.
Friends make me smile.

Dedicated to : Master Tony, Coach Alfred, Coach Kenneth, Athirah, Jimmy, Chee Ken and the whole team.

It's no longer a choice.

Salam to all.

11 October 2008.
InsyaAllah.


What a nice thing to hear,
At last, that day is near,
I felt so great,
That's the time to celebrate!


Images of hills, sands and beaches,
Smiles of my classmates, my lovely teachers,
My heart's dancing, but wait,
Could it be for real?


Oh please God let there be,
A Firefly ready waiting for me,
I really want to go, I'm sure You know,
So please, please, let there be.


Disappointed? No, I try not to,
I've put my trust in Allah's hand,
So, yes, my friends, I couldn't be there,
It's no longer a choice, I guess, It's no longer a choice.


I hope for that day to come,
That day for me to see all that I've missed,
I know it will never be the same,
But it's better than nothing.


Sometimes I just feel,
My heart singing,
We might find a place in this world someday,
But at least for now, I've got to go my own way...


It's nearing a year,

But I can't get over it.




I miss you guys!

Daily obligation