A Journey Beyond The Logical Mind

Salam to all.

Okay, so I'm breaking my promise of not writing until my final is over. Ok whatever.

I can't resist it. Mwahaha. ha. ha.

My classmates and I had lunch together at Smashed Chicken. Yeah, smashed as in penyet.

Ok sheesh. The idea dah cabut lari. Next timelah.

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The wind blows,
Very softly, just lightly touching me,
I breathed in,
Slowly, my eyes shut.

The ground under my feet, I'm sure,
But definitely my mind is flying,
Just yesterday, I crossed this road I'm sure,
But now well, I crossed this road goodbye.

-kina ni spoil lah baru nak feel sket in writing poem thanks for the lapotp anyway-

Salam to all.

US: My cousin seems to be enjoying herself pretty well. Glad not to hear or see her crying. Haha. (Ikha, ingat tau T-shirt I *heart* Michigan tu!)

Canada: Some are walking on snow-covered paths. Some are working hard for their mid-terms. Some complained about the weather. Some I didn't have a chance to ask how they're doing.

India: My God! It's their first week and they're already dissecting cadavers! Coolllll!

Malaysia: Some are trying hard not to fall asleep on Biology textbook. And Chemistry notes. And Math's past year papers. And Physix's printed powerpoint slides. And during English discussion. Enough said.

Alhamdulillah, I got the conditional offer from Auckland. I can't believe that I can actually come up to this stage. I was late for the English test. But glad I passed that and got the interview. Alhamdulillah, the interview went well (a nice mix of Mom's black shirt, Dalia's pink scarf and my new pair of slacks, =p).Way better than Monash's, JCU's and Newcastle's. Thanks Dr. Jensen and Dr. Perry for making me feel at ease.. =)

And then the dilemma. UTAS's deadline for accepting the conditional offer was 12th October. I felt undecided. UTAS's definitely got some strong plus points : 5 years, no interview, cool weather.. But then, if I were to accept UTAS, I wouldn't be able to accept any other offers, IF I can get more offers. Auckland's interview result was said to be released next week (probably on the 21st October, instead of this week). I was so scared if it turned out to be a case of 'yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran'. What if I decline UTAS and I didn't get Auckland? What if I accept UTAS and got an offer from Auckland? Just accept UTAS first and then change to Auckland. Well, it's not gonna be easy I think. Dealing with MARA and all those stuff. What if MARA doesn't approve? MARA will just issue one affidavit, that's what I've been told. MARA can just say: Hah, duduk je la kat UTAS tu, once they've issued me the affidavit. But then, going to New Zealand had been my dream ever since I got the letter from MARA to do SAM at Taylor's! (The letter dated June 2008 said: Program: Perubatan (Australia/New Zealand)!!!)

At last, I made the decision not to accept UTAS. Waiting for the email from Selset was like haaaaaahhhhh.. Will I get a rejection email? Or waiting list?

But Alhamdulillah, I went to Selset with my friends just now and all of us are offered places Auckland. I take this as Allah's way of motivating me to work harder. InsyaAllah, if Allah destined Auckland to cross my path, then nothing can stop His arrangements. And I must remember that the opposite can happen too. Everything is in His hands. What we like might not be the best for us. What seemed unacceptable to us at the beginning, might be the best things that could have ever happened. I must keep an open mind. Just work hard, pray hard and leave it to him. He knows what I don't. To all my friends, thank you. I know you guys prayed for me too. I hope all of us can soar high up in the air. I know we all can.

Salam to all.

To Nur Syazwany: Jangan jadi kiasu.

Salam to all.

Alhamdulillah, Allah had granted one of my prayers. For the past few days I've been praying for His guidance and for me to be really firm in my decision, whatever that may be. And I believe this is it. I am declining UTAS.

Mom said she's okay with it. Dad said that I must learn to make my own decision. And be FIRM with it.

Maturity? People who are close to me might think that I'm the kinda 'happy-go-lucky' person and way beyond reaching normal people-of-my-age's maturity level. But to me, maturity means the ability to make a decision, stick to it and ready to accept the consequences.
Even if you're 30++ but still unable to make a decision about your life, I think that you're still immature. That's my personal opinion, though. Hmmm.. I think I'm a bit matured today. Haha.

Oh, I just realised that one of Hujan's song (that's been in my mp3 for so long but I haven't actually listened to it) sangat best. =) Well, I Just want You to Know~

Salam to all.

At times like these, I must really hold on to 3:200.

(يَـٰٓأَيُّهَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ ٱصۡبِرُواْ وَصَابِرُواْ وَرَابِطُواْ وَٱتَّقُواْ ٱللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمۡ تُفۡلِحُونَ (٢٠٠

O ye who believe! persevere in patience and constancy: vie in such perseverance; strengthen each other; and fear Allah; that ye may prosper. (200) (Surah Ali-Imran)

And 65:2-3

(وَمَن يَتَّقِ ٱللَّهَ يَجۡعَل لَّهُ ۥ مَخۡرَجً۬ا (٢

( وَيَرۡزُقۡهُ مِنۡ حَيۡثُ لَا يَحۡتَسِبُ‌ۚ وَمَن يَتَوَكَّلۡ عَلَى ٱللَّهِ فَهُوَ حَسۡبُهُ ۥۤ‌ۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ بَـٰلِغُ أَمۡرِهِۦ‌ۚ قَدۡ جَعَلَ ٱللَّهُ لِكُلِّ شَىۡءٍ۬ قَدۡرً۬ا (٣


And for those who fear Allah, He (ever) prepares a way out (2) And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if anyone puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is (Allah) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish His purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. (3) (Surah At-Talaq)

Sheesh. I just hate myself. I just can't seem to push myself to be better. Stupidity! Argh! Aku dah penat markah rendah!!!!!!!!!!! Like what tha? 1A je?!! Berangan nak gi Auckland. Dia nak 97 tau tak?! At least 3 A19, 2 A18. Ni satu A jer. A17 je pun. Arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
Alhamdulilah dapat UTAS & JCU. Requirement tak setinggi Auckland but still giler la jugak dengan tahap trial yang bengong camni. Penat la. Penat giler.

Salam to all.

Semangat semangat. Keluar rumah. Naik lif. Oppps, terlupa beg lagi satu. Pergila ambil. Turun lif balik. Lari Lari. Kina, mana kamu? Jumpa kereta Kina. Lari lari, screech, terjatuh, bahagian lutut seluar terkoyak. Jeans favourite pulak tu. Adeyh. At last, pakai seluar taekwondo the whole day. Nasib baik harini ada training. Haha. What a day.