A Journey Beyond The Logical Mind

1. I have contacted my old buddies. [Yup, 10 from Almashoor and 8 from Seri Permai.......]


2. I have made new friends! [ 2 from MJSC Beseri, One from USA and One from Qatar ]


3. I have 'conquered' Bukit Jambul 8 times if I'm not mistaken.[Yeah, it was tiring but all the sweat was worth it because I could see the Penang Bridge from on top of Bukit Jambul. What a beauty! Plus, when we [ my dad and I ] reach the foot of the hill, we get to drink the 'Special Ais Mata Kucing'. Lovely!]


4. I did not eat rice from Monday to Thursday.[This is actually part of my diet regime.. I just eat bread instead of rice.. No joke you know.. But still, I just manage to lose 0.5 kilos only... , refer point number 7.]


5. I cycled a record of 30 kilometers in one day. [according to the exercise machine] [and just for that particular day only, hehehe... Average length: 5 km.]


6. I can play 'Ode To Joy' with the piano without looking at the music scores.[ This one is Beethoven's piece you know... ]


7. I lost 0.5 kilos... [out of targeted 4 kilos... I want [or have] to lose another 3.5 kilos before March... ]


8. I did not access my Friendster account for seven days! [My father said that I can't seem to go on with my life without my friends... So, I did that to prove that he was Wrong!][But after that, I access my Friendster account almost everyday... hehehe]


9. I have written a total of Nine posts for my blog! [Okay I guess, for a beginner like me..]

Overall, I would rate January as an 'unproductive' month because I didn't earn any single cent. Lets just hope that February will be A LOT better.. I really need to generate some income, to pay for my three new [and stylish] Cheetah Ladies T-Shirts. I owe my mom about RM 70 ++ for those T-shirts. [I got 50% discount for each T-shirt you know! It's the same as buy one, get one free... That's why I bought three all in one go!]

This was my favourite bedtime song when I was a kid. You can hear it too. I have put it under 'Listen To This'. It took me ages to finally hear this nasheed again. There are a lot of version to this nasheed but Yusuf Islam's version is the best and the closest one to the one I used to hear twelve years ago... So enjoy! I know you guys will love it too.... Oh yeah, thanks to justsomelyrics.com.

Just want to let you guys know that my grandmother's brother had passed away yesterday of a motorcycle accident. May Allah place him alongside his faithful and blessed servants. I would greatly appreciate all of us read 'Al-Fatihah' for him. Thank you.

This incident brought back the memory of my late grandfather who died ten days after celebrating 2005's Eid Al-Fitri. It was totally unpredictable.

It was past 9 p.m that night. All of us were watching TV as usual. Laughing at the jokes and enjoying the show...

My mum's cell phone rang.

I was wondering who could be calling us at this hour?

My mom picked up the phone and went outside, to get better reception. She was talking with a serious note, as I glanced once in a while at her.

She then put her phone down and turned to us.

"Tok ayah pengsan." or in English, "Tok Ayah fainted" she said.

At that moment, my body froze. I couldn't stop but keep thinking of the worst... I always do that.. My heartbeat raced, I can feel my blood pressure rising. I wanted to ask my mom some questions, but it didn't come out.

My mom quickly called my dad who was on his way to KL that night. Over the phone, my father said he will be heading home soon and cancel his business trip.

My mother was silent. I was silent. Even my noisy brother was silent. It was as if we were stupefied. All of us looked at the floor, although there was nothing really to see...

All of a sudden, my mom's cell phone rang again.

This time, my grandfather had passed away.

That was the first time a relative that I am close with passed away. And as I am typing this, I can still recall that fateful night and that same feeling I had still hasn't changed. My heart is beating quite fast...

We went to my grandmother's home nearly an hour and a half later. We were joined by my uncle and his family who lived in Penang too.

I usually enjoyed travelling during the night, but that particular night was not one of it.

It made me realise how small we are. How we can't predict when we will be called to see the Lord. How little my deeds are and how much wrongdoings I have committed. But, as a normal human being, that feeling only lasted for some while....

Now, there's another one of my family members that had been called by Allah, the moment we least expected it. And I reflected my deeds and wrongdoings again... How little am I...

I hope I will become a better Muslimah each day, and I prayed the same to you. May we all implement the moral of this true story and improve our ibadah everyday.