A Journey Beyond The Logical Mind

Salam to all.

I am..

Happy:
~because I just love to be happy. Rating : ???
~because my -dreaded- physics presentation is over! Rating : ***
~because no more M'sian studies' folio! Rating : ***
~because I enjoyed doing the shooting for M'sian studies' video!! Rating : ***
~because tomorrow is Sunday. Rating: **
~because I'm not addicted to any TV show, anime (except Hanakimi, especially their OST) whatsoever. Rating:*

Frustrated:
~because my Chem test is seriously teruk lahhhhhhhhhhh! Rating : -****
~because I have not the time to write here in my nearly dusty blog as often as I used to. Rating :-**
~because the sole of my newly-bought shoe has cracked. Rating :-***
~because the Hanakimi special edition video loads toooooooooooooooooooooooooo slow. Rating: -***
~because I couldn't get my moves right. Rating : -***

I can be happier if:
~I can just think of the words and it will instantly be posted to my blog.
~I can become invisible and just dive into the pool.
~I can fly to college everyday.
~I can just exercise more control over my spending. (this sounds more realistic than the three mentioned earlier, haha!)
~I can just be more 'rajin'.

The past:
Raya. (Fun. Syukur. Happy. Love. Need to describe more?)
MAPCU TKD tournament. (I wish to see you guys again!)
Mock IELTS. (Listening memang out. Writing apa lagi. Reading ok ker?)
ISAT. (I wish I had more time! ~and a bigger table!!!)
Msian studies' folio ~Royal Institution. (effects of procrastination : ambik kau kena tidoq pukul dua setengah, dah la esok tu test chem... bagus betul! Dah ada chance nak buat kat rumah tak nak buat! Tengok apa jadi ngan test chem haritu?? Hancur lebur! ~slang utara: Hancoq leboq!)Anyway, Alhamdulillah, we were able to submit it on time.
Physics Project ~ Implanted Cardio Defibrillator. (Interesting topic. You should read about it. Note: I guess my classmates and I are all destined to work in the biomedical field. Proof: The questions bombarded to me, athirah and farha are all related to bio and not physics. And of course, during the research, my teammates and I tend to be more interested in the biological side of the ICD, how the electrical system of the heart works and those kind of stuff. Oh yeah, credits to Zubet and Dalia for your willingness to share infos with us!)
Chemistry Class Test 2. (No comment~ Terlalu kecewa dengan diri sendiri)
Unity Song! - The L in We Are The Rakyatlah! Unity!

The future:
Grading.
IELTS. The REAL ielts.
Final Exam.
Chemistry Practical Test.
Human Awareness Essay.

BE POSITIVE.
BE OPTIMISTIC.
BE PREPARED.

As they say:

SAM.
Study atau Mati.



I couldn't agree more.

Salam to all.

KAU!
Ya, kau lah siapa lagi,
Aku selalu kalah,
Kalah dan kalah lagi,
Aku cuba bangun, tapi kau hantam aku bertubi-tubi,
Sakit tau tak?!

Ok fine,
Aku dah jatuh,
Tapi, sebab aku jatuhlah aku boleh bangun balik,
And I promise you I will.

***

I want to:

*Play badminton because I love the feeling of hitting the shuttle, especially during 'Smash'.
*Swim because I love the freedom I get underwater.
*Buy a pair of sandal or shoe maybe because I don't want to wear my favourite shoe every single day. I don't like wearing slippers, mind you.
*Finish my Physics project so that I can enjoy life more.
*Eat ikan bakar with lots and lots of sambal.
*Sing my heart out (duet maybe. haha. like that's gonna happen). Only God knows how much I love to sing.
*Kick those thing you kick during taekwondo practice. (They better have the practice tomorrow or I'll.. I'll... erm.. I'll feel sooooooooooooo frustrated)
*End this post so that I can focus on my real reason why I am here in The Web.

Salam to all.

Kakak..
Haah? (menyahut)
Sarah dah meninggal..
Haah? Sarah mana? Sarah yang abang dia nama Anas tu?
Hmm.. (mengiyakan)
Haaa.. (tergamam)
Dia kena accident kereta..

It's hard to swallow that piece of information I just got from my sister. Sarah, a girl I've known about 6 years ago, my junior at my Qiraati I can say..

Bubbly. Cheerful. Always with a smile.

Tau tak, dia selalu tanya Mimi macamana kat sekolah menengah.. Dia cakap dia nak dapat 5A, nak masuk sekolah BJ sama dengan Mimi.. Boleh selalu jumpa Mimi.. Boleh rehat sama-sama..
Yeker..?(I feel like crying, but considering the fact that I was in the car with my whole family, I decided not to)
Dia darjah apa?
Darjah 6.
Yer...? Dia sempat ambik UPSR tak?
Sempat kot.. Tapi tak dapat ambik result lah..
(And tak dapat rasa suasana sekolah menengah yang dia selalu tanya Mimi.. Ya Allah.. Lagilah aku sebak..)

Even as I type this, I still could not digest the fact that she's not here anymore. Why it's so hard for me to do so? Why is it so hard for me to accept the fact that anyone of any age can die? Maybe it's because I didn't see it with my own two eyes.

Sarah was close to Mimi. She would call to ask Mimi if she's going to Mengaji or not. She would call to convey Ustazah's message to Mimi as Mimi could no longer attend Mengaji. I was sometimes the one who picked up the phone.

Selamat tinggal Sarah.
Kak Wany tak sangka Allah jemput Sarah dulu.
Untungnya kau, Sarah. Pergi dalam keadaan suci mengadap-Nya.
Kak Wany harap keluarga Sarah dapat menerima ujian-Nya dengan redha, tabah dan sabar.
Al-Fatihah dari Kak Wany buatmu Sarah.