A Journey Beyond The Logical Mind

Salam to all.

Alhamdulillah, Allah had granted one of my prayers. For the past few days I've been praying for His guidance and for me to be really firm in my decision, whatever that may be. And I believe this is it. I am declining UTAS.

Mom said she's okay with it. Dad said that I must learn to make my own decision. And be FIRM with it.

Maturity? People who are close to me might think that I'm the kinda 'happy-go-lucky' person and way beyond reaching normal people-of-my-age's maturity level. But to me, maturity means the ability to make a decision, stick to it and ready to accept the consequences.
Even if you're 30++ but still unable to make a decision about your life, I think that you're still immature. That's my personal opinion, though. Hmmm.. I think I'm a bit matured today. Haha.

Oh, I just realised that one of Hujan's song (that's been in my mp3 for so long but I haven't actually listened to it) sangat best. =) Well, I Just want You to Know~

Salam to all.

At times like these, I must really hold on to 3:200.

(يَـٰٓأَيُّهَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ ٱصۡبِرُواْ وَصَابِرُواْ وَرَابِطُواْ وَٱتَّقُواْ ٱللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمۡ تُفۡلِحُونَ (٢٠٠

O ye who believe! persevere in patience and constancy: vie in such perseverance; strengthen each other; and fear Allah; that ye may prosper. (200) (Surah Ali-Imran)

And 65:2-3

(وَمَن يَتَّقِ ٱللَّهَ يَجۡعَل لَّهُ ۥ مَخۡرَجً۬ا (٢

( وَيَرۡزُقۡهُ مِنۡ حَيۡثُ لَا يَحۡتَسِبُ‌ۚ وَمَن يَتَوَكَّلۡ عَلَى ٱللَّهِ فَهُوَ حَسۡبُهُ ۥۤ‌ۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ بَـٰلِغُ أَمۡرِهِۦ‌ۚ قَدۡ جَعَلَ ٱللَّهُ لِكُلِّ شَىۡءٍ۬ قَدۡرً۬ا (٣


And for those who fear Allah, He (ever) prepares a way out (2) And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if anyone puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is (Allah) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish His purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. (3) (Surah At-Talaq)

Sheesh. I just hate myself. I just can't seem to push myself to be better. Stupidity! Argh! Aku dah penat markah rendah!!!!!!!!!!! Like what tha? 1A je?!! Berangan nak gi Auckland. Dia nak 97 tau tak?! At least 3 A19, 2 A18. Ni satu A jer. A17 je pun. Arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
Alhamdulilah dapat UTAS & JCU. Requirement tak setinggi Auckland but still giler la jugak dengan tahap trial yang bengong camni. Penat la. Penat giler.

Salam to all.

Semangat semangat. Keluar rumah. Naik lif. Oppps, terlupa beg lagi satu. Pergila ambil. Turun lif balik. Lari Lari. Kina, mana kamu? Jumpa kereta Kina. Lari lari, screech, terjatuh, bahagian lutut seluar terkoyak. Jeans favourite pulak tu. Adeyh. At last, pakai seluar taekwondo the whole day. Nasib baik harini ada training. Haha. What a day.